Cold, Cold, Cold!!!

Ok not really lol. Its mostly just cool today. So this is what happened, more or less a friendly weather report from my eye over the last few days. So Monday was sunny, well its been sunny everyday so that's normal, its Florida after all, its the Sunshine State, lol. So it wasn't hot kinda, but it had a nice cool breeze, another normal thing, but I knew it meant that fall was right around the corner. Now most of you would say, hasn't fall already come because its basically the end of Sept. about to be Oct. but here in Florida it can be weird like that. So Tuesday was about the same a slight change in temperature because of the breeze and today basically it went down more, but its dropping and fast. I was talking to Mayu and I know, maybe not for a fact, but its gonna be like in '89. Its going to snow! I can feel it, it was so hot this summer and its already beginning to be cold now, I don't even want to think about it. I've never seen snow so it would be cool but I don't have to clothes for it and I don't want it too but I hope Florida learned to use salt and not sand to melt the ice cause they can be dumbasses sometimes. Lol well everyone can be, including me.

Kids, Dogs, and Too Many Errands

This happened March 14, 2009

I'm 18 and will be 19 in less 8 days... I can't stand kids right now, my niece and nephew are so freaking bad that its getting on my nerves. They are always pawned off on me, their stupid dad which is my brother doesn't understand that when you have children your life is over and your kids begins, he still hasn't gotten that after 3 kids, one that's 10 will be 11 in May, a 6 year old and a 1 year old, do people not know how to use fucking condoms or birth control, come on even tv shows you how to use them, I still haven't had the "sex talk" with my mom and I probably know more than her, by brother, my dad and my mom's boyfriend.... Its not hard to figure out that you need to use birth control and that you always use a condom unless you know the person is clean and doesn't have anything... but know my brother the stupidest man alive doesn't know how to use a condom but know he does... a little too late dumbass...

Had to take my dogs to the groomers and take the kids with me... a task in itself, hard as hell to do, two kids two dogs, one almost 19 year old that's already annoyed not a good combination...

My mom wanted me to run errands, it was only to take my dogs to the groomer and to go to the post office but with the kids and dogs it was a lot, now I'm not complaining that I had to help or do anything, I'm more complaining about the fact that I'm stuck watching someone else's kids, I'm tired of watching my brother's kids he pays me but damnit it gets on my nerves...

Oh well when I'm gone he'll know there will be no one else to watch them cause he can't come to Miami to make me watch them

quote of the moment: "Learn to say no even if it means no money."

New Shoes and the Color Pink

This happened March 13, 2009

So Relu here, for some reason I've had a really girly week... I'm not that girly, yeah I wear make up and I like dresses and skirts, but I don't wear many heels, but that's mostly cause I can never find any... But let's not talk about that sooo.... the girly week. I've just gotten three new pair of shoes, one of them pink... I use to say I hated pink but now pink is the new thing for me, maybe me losing weight and trying to get into a more girly style is triggering something... Oh well.... I'm not a hyprocite I guess I'm just coming into my own. It took me a long time to get to the point and not saying I changed or anything I didn't I just started looking at clothes and shoes in a different way. I'm not a fashion person probably never will be but I'm more into clothes and shoes that I use to be. I went window shopping with Mayu yesterday and we went into Rainbow, one of the many stores we like to shop in... but I saw this amazing pink dress that I wanted, but couldn't have... no money in pocket at the time... lol. But I wanted it so bad and it was pink... Its not that pink its a good color I've just never really been into the color before. I even got a few pink things last week, like a jacket and a white shirt with pink designs on it... but that's my rant for pink and shoes lol

quote of the day: "Pink is not a girly color, its a color that looks good with chocolate skin."

Mentally Drained

Its the third day of school, well now its over, and already I'm tired as hell. My car decided to die on me again after being fixed on Sunday and not having it for almost a month. I think some fuse is short in it or something but it could be something worst but I hope not. It completely died on my yesterday in the middle of the damn street, yes the middle of the street. And I have no cell phone so I had to ask someone to borrow theirs they were nice and let me. Then some older guy, young though probably no older than twenty five and his girlfriend I'm guessing pulled over and helped me out. The car wouldn't start, wouldn't even click over a little, but the key was stuck in the ignition and wouldn't come out. But no, he gets in the car tries a few times and it turns back on, pissed me off but I was happy. So he followed me home to make sure I got there, did I mention it was raining like hell. So I took my mom's car today to school and now I have to take it again.

I tried getting a access code for my math class and it fucked up on me, so I paid for the book that was supposed to have the code with it, but no the code doesn't want to work and now I think the code might have went through twice, meaning it charged my mom's card twice.... Why won't the world just give me a break. So hopefully it only went through once but we won't know until her bill comes.

I have so much to do for classes homework wise, but right now I'm just going to go up front and do my speech, yes a speech its only about 2 to 3 minutes though so its ok. Its due tomorrow so I have to figure out what I'm going to do with that but I will get on sometime later to tell the rest of my week and whatnot.

Oh did I mention its being raining everyday and we are on call for a flood warning.

A Not So New Development

I’m a big girl; yes you can tell from the pictures, you’ll be able to tell from more pictures that I put up, etc etc. I don’t like talking about my weight, well yet me say it this way. I don’t care to talk about it, meaning if you want to know how much and what my sizes are then go right ahead, I will talk about it. But when it gets in a negative or way that says I need to lose weight, then I don’t want to talk. No one was negative, that’s not where I’m going with this.

My mom, smaller woman, just wanted to say it even though it has nothing to do with what I’m about to say…. She wants me to lose weight. I want to lose weight too, but at the same time I don’t seem as if I want to. I guess I just want a quick fix, I know that’s horrible to say, well not horrible but kinda dumb on my part cause you have to work for what you want. But dang it, I’m lazy, lol.

She is crying and whatnot about my weight and that she doesn’t want me to leave this world before she does, etc etc. I’m not being mean I understand where she is coming from, I understand that its not good to be my size, not because of how I look but to be more healthy and whatnot.

People think that bigger people are sad, no some are sad and others just like to eat food. Now I’m on the side of both. I don’t eat because I’m sad or depressed, I have my moments when I cry for no reason and my moments when I’m just sad and that’s it. But I don’t want food I want music or a comedy something to make me laugh so I can forget. I love food, it’s a passion. Food is awesome as you will here me say all the time and that’s that.

My mom thinks that I eat because I’m sad and I try to tell her I don’t but, she knows I’m sad even if I say I’m not. Mom’s know everything no matter how hard you try to keep things from them. With that said, I just don’t know what to do. I hate working out, I rather do martial arts, dance, something fun, that’s like a workout. I don’t want to feel as if I’m doing that and yeah I know it costs money, which I don’t have, and yes I need to find other ways, but I can be stubborn as hell and I just won’t budge.

But now I can’t do that since she is making me lose the weight, she is making me eat differently, and I’ll have to start doing something to work out. School starts back on Monday so maybe during that time I can work out and do some things, my friend is trying to get smaller, don’t know why cause she is already small, but oh well, maybe we can do stuff together but I know I need to do things on my own. That’s one lesson I need to learn, I can be alone and be happy and still have fun.

First Day

<----- Saki or some know me as Relu

This is the most recent picture I have of myself, taken back in April, I think it was the first. I just joined here, today, off of another person, was looking through their blog and thought hey, why don't I start up a blog, I always wanted to and this gives me an excuse to do so and to not hold off on it anymore.

Some people are probably going to look at the title of my blog, "Knowings of an Unstoppable Mind," and just laugh, I laugh at it too but its the best way to describe how my mind works. It never stops going, from one subject to the next, if I could, I would literally talk a mile a minute, but my brain can't send signals to my mouth fast enough to do that. I could always learn though, maybe I'll try it sometime, but no big deal.

I don't know how good at this I will be but hey if you read it and find something useful out of it please tell me, I'll try to expand on it more. But for now have a good time wherever you are, and I'll be back later.